havent felt this way in so long...

I am giddy nervous as school starts on MONDAY!!! My life is so different than it was a year ago. I have changed so many things and my DREAMS are now becoming GOALS. what an amazing feeling! the amount of focus, schedule, and sheer determination it is going to take is, to say the least, a bit overwhelming. I am hoping that the momentum of Monday lasts me through the next week... here goes nothin'!!

Adding MORE to balance... ????

I have been asking myself that for a LONG time now... If I add working out and school to my already pretty full life will I feel stressed out or more balanced. I finally realized that it would make me feel more like me and that should help me balance.

A ton has happened to me in the last 2 years to get me to this decision. I have battled depression for most of my life and finally in Dec. 2009 had to DO something about it. I started some meds that at first really helped. I started a part time job to make a little $ and get a break from "mommyhood". Most importantly about Sept. I started attending a really awesome Church, Wellspring Church, and I can say that has made a huge difference for me in realizing just what I needed to do to be ME. I have been able to wean myself off the meds, organize and evaluate my life, and declutter my mind & my home... what a clear picture I have now.

So on Dec. 13th I stared the 1st day of MY year!!! I started working out, eating better, and I applied for college! I am stoked!

So does adding MORE make sense to balance??... well, for me, it surely does! My question is then what do you need to do to balance??

Do you dance in church?

So for several weeks now right after church I get into the car feeling completely alive... renewed for my week, inspired to greatness, encouraged to live life giving glory to God... (exciting right?) then my hubby says to me... "that was a little embarassing"... I am interrupted from my thoughts and answer... "embarassed?what?" He says to me "yeah. do you have to DANCE during worship??" At first I didnt know what to say and then I said " yes actually, I do!" =D You see the music we worship to is really contemporary Christian rock and every moment of it is believed by the band which in turn ramps up how much you BELIEVE every drumbeat, every strum, every note, every word! So being a person that loves to dance and move around I CANNOT help myself... not even to make Jay feel more comfortable while standing next to me... sorry. I happen to think God knew that about me and led me to a church where that would be acceptable and maybe even encouraged!!

The song that gets me all giddy is "rise & sing" by Fee. Never heard it you say?? well, youtube it! its worth it! Feeling like you dont wanna get up in the morning... put this on as soon as you wake up, its better than a cup of coffee any day! =D

So I ask... do you dance in Church?? I do!

A new start...

I have realized that I think it is important to share my story because it is a way for me to grow closer to God... It may not be everyone's way but it is mine... I would like to, in this space, share with everyone my struggle with depression, my path to God, my love of Christian music, and the journey that Jesus is taking me on to learn who I really am, what I am made of, and what my purpose is here on Earth... I am excited to celebrate the birth of Jesus this Christmas holiday in a whole new light and new way & I am very excited to see what 2011 has in store for me...

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